i hope all is well.
my last post over a month ago was going to be the last considering i wanted to get away from all things jw but this place is much harder to ignore than previously thought.
life has taken some very interesting turns since late last year.
YES! Congrats on finding your freedom, helping others doing real volunteer work, unlike the work some have been tricked into believing will actually help and the pregnancy.
How nice that these twins will be born free :)
Really nice post to read. All the best
where a few of us here on the forum live is in an emergency situation.
the main spillway on oroville dam -- the tallest dam in the usa -- is damaged.
the emergency spillway, never used before in the 48 years the dam has operated, is eroding.. major confusion and panic occurred when the order went out sunday, late afternoon: this is not a drill!.
Oh my! Hope it gets resolved soon. Thnx for the info bc we hadnt heared anything in spain. Keep safe
at the meeting today, we were reading the watchtower and this elder apologetically said to such a degree in regards to romans 5:12 that "we humans are not worthy of any mercy from jehovah.
we shouldn't even have free will because we can't possibly do anything good enough to please jehovah.
we don't even deserve life because of sin.
When i was in i dont remember hearing the actual words "we deserve to die" but i do remember the feeling of my life not belonging to me.
I understand how somebody awake would have difficulty not cringing but i cant help thinking of the ones who actually take those words to heart. So sad how after being fed those thoughts for years
This is the theology of "undeserved kindness
Exactly that. We dont deserve the kindness of revolving my life around the society
last night at the meeting there was a suggested presentation about the new mags, which cover the issue of depression in minors.
the jw jumps straight from "hi how are ya" to "how is your kids mental well-being " and of course the hh is more than happy to discuss the inner workings of their child's mind with a stranger whose just knockedmon their door(!).
if it was me i'd be majorly creeper out!.
If anything this is likely to spiral them further into depression, based on feelings of guilt
My thoughts exactly, a trap made up of an empty promise isn't going to help anyone.
hi everyone, i've just registered and thought i might introduce myself and tell my experience.
my name's raquel.. i was born into a jw family.
i started leading a double life around 14y/o and got caught drinking by another sister when i was 15 and saw that as my opportunity to quit the panthomime and stopped going to the meetings.
As I said before i have a good relationship with my close family and that's bc they havent been too pushy with giving me magazines or fixated on my coming back but one that really got me was a strategically placed return to jehova brochure.
Another time was when a non jw aunt if mine passed away. I guess the negotiating fase of grieving...but that time was really close...
Once i left i considered myself agnostic and didnt really do any type of research but tried to avoid thinking about it so always had that "what if armaggedon IS coming tomorrow" in the back of my mind...but as Nathan Natas puts it suddenly...nothing happened hahahahaha
It just goes to show how well they have perfectioned the brainwashing that a person who isnt going to meetings regularly, isnt shunned, is leading a fulfilled life is still making themselves not think badly of the gb
After 16 years i feel like ive got a lot of catching up on information i want to do😊 will approach this just like have done with everything in my life...trying to learn from all that comes my way.
hi everyone, i've just registered and thought i might introduce myself and tell my experience.
my name's raquel.. i was born into a jw family.
i started leading a double life around 14y/o and got caught drinking by another sister when i was 15 and saw that as my opportunity to quit the panthomime and stopped going to the meetings.
Hi everyone! Thanks for warm welcome to TTATT. The kind words are much appreciated.
Baker- thanks for the introduction to jt liked this video will def be watching more. He's funny and has in depth first hand info...👍👍👍
Have crisis of concience on my wishlist 😊 its amazing how quickly the veil is lifted once you actually dare to start looking in right places and this website is one of them.
It seems as though your family are at least fairly tolerant.
Yes my family, as i have to realize these last weeks are very tolerant eventhough they are very active jw's. I can only imagine the level of guilt they go through when they are bombarded with shunning instructions. Don't know if they will ever be ready for the real truth but im on the lookout for signs of doubt to jump onto.
hi everyone, i've just registered and thought i might introduce myself and tell my experience.
my name's raquel.. i was born into a jw family.
i started leading a double life around 14y/o and got caught drinking by another sister when i was 15 and saw that as my opportunity to quit the panthomime and stopped going to the meetings.
Thanks for the welcome
Cofty- yesss jwfacts has also been one of my recent discoveries still have a lot of investigating to do though 😊
Finklestein- it has taken years for that fact to dawn on me..such a pretencious group of manipulating (bleeps) i kinda feel sorry for them at the same time bc i think they actually believe the things as they are making them up. I've also had dreams/ hallusinations that jehovah was calling me back to him bc these are the last days....powerful how the mind works..it will believe anything it's heard enough times XD
Nathan Natas- thnx for the beautiful song/ video had to laugh at your john cedars heads up. I like how i can see the "best bits" of conventions awake...so eye opening seeing from the outside..not the only source im sticking to but he did, as you say, point me in the right direction..and voilá here i am
Onthewayout- thanks! Strength to you too. Day by day ✔ I live 10 metres away from a kh so see jws quite often. had never though of the stages of grief in this case...want to think im accepting my newfound truth progressivly. And yes shaking off the guilt is one of the best things ever.
Never a jw- absolutely! My dad once talked me out of it when i was 12 😅 i now see how life changing that 5 min conversation was.
My close friends have seen how i have been on the bringe of returning (about 6/7 times over the space of 16 years) and have listened to me but this is honestly the first time i've felt understood.
i've just come across this idea: i've been feeling guilty about not contributing more to this forum, given all the help i've received here.
i feel guilty that i haven't had it as bad as so many of you.
i feel guilty that i didn't have any jw family/friends that shunned me when i left.
Hi! You didn't sound crazy to me but brave.
I hope you find what works for you to stop that feeling. It's a process but you're on your way. :)
hi everyone, i've just registered and thought i might introduce myself and tell my experience.
my name's raquel.. i was born into a jw family.
i started leading a double life around 14y/o and got caught drinking by another sister when i was 15 and saw that as my opportunity to quit the panthomime and stopped going to the meetings.
Hi everyone, I've just registered and thought i might introduce myself and tell my experience. My name's Raquel.
I was born into a jw family. I started leading a double life around 14y/o and got caught drinking by another sister when i was 15 and saw that as my opportunity to quit the panthomime and stopped going to the meetings.
I started working when i was 16 and suddenly found myself with freedom that i had never had. I would say i had a nice childhood but as you all will know, growing up in "the truth" isn't exactly about making decisions for yourself or not being controlled at every second of your life (by others but in my case mainly myself)
To make a long story short, i spent the rest of my teens and half of my twenties partying drinking doing drugs doing anything to keep my mind busy. I was lucky enough to not have been shunned or kicked out of the house but i didnt have any type of relationship with my parents and wanted to avoid being home as much as possible.
I've been sober for 5 years now and have had the clarity to be able to have a look at myself and what ive been running from. This June I will have been inactive (was never baptised) for 16 years but i only had the courage to slowly start investigating the organization a year ago.. i have only truly woken up and realised the level of brainwashing most of my family is going through and has also affected me so deeply a month ago.
I have felt so guilty for "knowing the way of the lord" and not following it, thinking of loopholes to still be saved at armagedon and sporadicly thinking about returning up until the moment i stumbled across john ceddars videos about a month ago.
To be honest im not sure if im relieved or enfuriated! What huge scam...
I must say that after reading others experiences i feel so lucky to have a great relationship with all of my family and to have spent more that half of my life out of the organization.
I have always been afraid of being branded an apostate but now i cant help but want to read more and know more. This is the most i have spoken out but it wont be the last.
